There are a lot of things that i desperately think about.
That time, i met this guy. He's a best friend of my best brother.
The first time i saw him, i believe that he's not my type at all.
My mate's at college knows him too and they were starting to annoy me with the existance of that boy.
I'm so mad and told them to stop. But when they do, all of a sudden i got curious about him too.

I've never been so in love in a past 2 years. I never wanted anything so insanely.
And since then, i felt it. I wanted him. I look after him. I see him carefully. I started stalked him until i got all the information about him.  The information that i wanted to know til the ones that i don't .

I found his instagram account.
And  when i open it, my eyes stucked on the last picture he took.
It's a girl. I get more curious, so i open that girl picture's too.
And look what i just broke! My heart.
I read the caption that he wrote under the photo.

"I've never been so thankful. Since the first time i saw you, i know that you're the one. Though you're already left me  i still be grateful. You're the most beautiful girl i've ever met. And  you used to be mine. I love you so much. Have a happy life."

Damn it. I wanted him more.
I'm craving for a love like that.
I'm dying to be loved like that.
And i wanted him. I wanted him to love me that much.
I hate my self. Why am i  just a huge ugly nasty girl?
I never had someone who loved me like that.

I wanted him.
Seriously.
I'm mad about him.
I wanted him.
Right here. Right now.
All for once and ever.