There are a lot of things that i desperately think about.
That time, i met this guy. He's a best friend of my best brother.
The first time i saw him, i believe that he's not my type at all.
My mate's at college knows him too and they were starting to annoy me with the existance of that boy.
I'm so mad and told them to stop. But when they do, all of a sudden i got curious about him too.

I've never been so in love in a past 2 years. I never wanted anything so insanely.
And since then, i felt it. I wanted him. I look after him. I see him carefully. I started stalked him until i got all the information about him.  The information that i wanted to know til the ones that i don't .

I found his instagram account.
And  when i open it, my eyes stucked on the last picture he took.
It's a girl. I get more curious, so i open that girl picture's too.
And look what i just broke! My heart.
I read the caption that he wrote under the photo.

"I've never been so thankful. Since the first time i saw you, i know that you're the one. Though you're already left me  i still be grateful. You're the most beautiful girl i've ever met. And  you used to be mine. I love you so much. Have a happy life."

Damn it. I wanted him more.
I'm craving for a love like that.
I'm dying to be loved like that.
And i wanted him. I wanted him to love me that much.
I hate my self. Why am i  just a huge ugly nasty girl?
I never had someone who loved me like that.

I wanted him.
Seriously.
I'm mad about him.
I wanted him.
Right here. Right now.
All for once and ever.

Mon Nouveau Gadget ! Qu'en penses Tu ?

Il est déjà 12:00 minuit, et ma mere n’est pas venu maison après le travail. J’ai attendu toute la nuit jusqu’à ce que je me suis endormi. Tout à coup le matin quand je me reveille, j’ai eu une boîte à mon bureau. Je suis curieux et quand je l’ai ouvert, là vous allez les meilleurs gadgets de l’année ! Je suis tellement heureuse que je ne pouvais pas crier. Je cours à la chambre de ma mere pour lui réveiller et dit sa comment je le remercie de sa gentillesse. Je suis tellement accro aux technologies et maintenant les meilleurs technologies est dans ma main. Maintenant, puis que je n'avais plus grand tout nouveau gadget de l'année qui avait les meilleures technologies à l’intérieur, j’ai cru j’ai pu apprendre beaucoup plus sur tout. Surtout sur mon intérêt il soi. Oui, Chanter ! Je pouvais télécharger enregistreur vocal et entendre ma propre voix et être mieux pour elle. Et je pourrais aussi partagé ma voix soit entendue par le monde. Argh ! et il ya beaucoup plus encore que je pouvais faire avec elle ! si heureux que les technologies garder étant mieux ! 

Mais dans tous les cas, que pensez-vous sur les gadgets et la technologie de nos jours ? et que pensez-vous de moi qui est tellement accro à la technologie et ne peut pas vivre sans avec elle?

Hey guys!!

Im gonna introduce my self before all of u begin starts to read my page ;)

I'm Saskya Raissa Emil. My friends usually call me saskie. so u can call me like that if u want to guys! x) 

I was born on18th of July 1995. If u ask me, "how old are u saskie??" im gonna say to you that for now im still at 15th years old.

Heeem... Still too young right? ehehehehe

ok next!

I live with my aunt and my uncle at Cireundeu - Jakarta Selatan - Indonesia

I didn't live with my parents..

My mom and my dad has been separated for many years ago. My dad already had a wife.. and they had 3 childs.

my mom should stay with me, but for some reason i cant live with my mom..

its very pain and very hard to let her alone cz she just have me and so do i.. i just have her..

but i've promised her, i'll study hard until someday i can make my mom happy and proud because of me :)

ehm... i like singing very much! i love music, i love guitar, piano, violin, and saxophone...

i can only play guitar, and i just can singing... but i still love piano, violin and saxophone

ah if u want to see me singing just check these links!!

   *  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y02MctIKvpY

   *  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2elsXT5ZLVw

   *  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yUsxxsHViPc

   *  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OqwDYP6eTgQ

ehehehe, dont forget to like, comments, and subscribe ;)

but im not just like music.. 

i do like designing too!!

especially fashion designing!

it was fun to draw draw draw

make many creations for myself

made many gown for me, my fam, and my gals

ehehehe. i think that was enough about me..

so, how bout u guys?? :)